BECAUSE KYLE PAYNE DESERVES FUCK ALL.

I’m a bit late on this, but life has been hell with classes. you see, this semester, I take 2 classes at SUNY Ulster, and 2 at New Paltz. these schools are 20 minutes away from each other, 15 on a good day, and both are 15 minutes away from where i live. ugh. also, i put up a header! i like it lots, except that’s not what it really looks like BUT WORDPRESS KEEPS FUCKING IT UP. that’s ok one day i will finally throw in the 15$ to do the custom css.

WHATEVER, THE POINT IS, I’M LATE, I’M SORRY, BUT I FOUND OUT THAT KYLE PAYNE WAS SENTENCED TO A LAUGHABLE SIX MONTHS IN THE COUNTY JAIL.

Miserable fuckBlogger sentenced to six months in county jail, via the Iowa Independent.

If we’ve forgotten, Kyle Payne was the radical feminist activist who decided that it would be such a grand idea to use his positions of power and respect to grope and take photographs of a passed out woman.

So I went on over to this parasite’s blog and found his most recent entry, Because You Deserve to Know.

Oh, how people like this should just NOT FUCKING SPEAK. HOLY SHIT.

If this was a real ‘you deserve to know’ post, it would’ve gone a little something like: ‘hey y’all I’ve been sentenced to six months in the county jail, i am an enormous fuck and i should’ve been sentenced harsher but there you have it. see you around.’ in fact, i would honestly prefer if people like this attempted to simply drop off the planet and avoid human contact. but no, this is a manipulative piece of shit, so this thing is like FIVE HUNDRED PRINTER PAGES of self-pitying bullshit AS IF ANYONE GIVES A FUCK ABOUT HIS PRECIOUS LITTLE PROBLEMS OR WHY HE DID IT OR ANYTHING. CHRIST HOW INTO YOURSELF CAN YOU *BE*?!

This is below a cut because the quoted text includes this miserable cretin describing the assault he committed, and because this post is getting too fuckin big.

While caring for the female student, I felt a sudden impulse to expose her breast. Not knowing how to deal with this feeling at the time – and to put it more clearly, not knowing how to make sense of such an urge, given my personal values and my politics – I acted upon it. With a digital camera I kept with me regularly, I briefly photographed and took a few seconds of video of the woman’s breast. She did not consent to this act, nor did she have any knowledge of it at the time. This event ended as quickly as it began, leaving me in a state of disbelief at what I had done.

As I have been instructed not to make contact with the victim, I have no way of knowing how she is doing or what effect my actions have had on her life. I feel it is likely, however, that my actions have, at the very least, left her feeling less safe in the company of men. I hope she is doing well, and I hope she knows, with the utmost certainty, that she did not deserve to be treated in this way. No one does.

OOOOOOOOOKAY. HOW DO I EVEN BEGIN?!

a FEELING CAME OVER YOU AND YOU COULDN’T DEAL WITH IT? ARE YOU FOR FUCKIN REAL? what are you, three?! my twelve year old cousin seems to have better impulse control than you, overflowing hormones and all, and at least when she decides to do something impulsively, she DOESN’T RUIN PEOPLE’S LIVES.

y’all, it’s one thing when you’re a homophobe who has a gay affair, a green activist who drives an SUV, hell, even a DARE officer who snorts coke. these aren’t great things and they sure are hypocritical, but you AREN’T ASSAULTING SOMEONE. CHRIST ABOVE.

secondly, i HATE when abusive people attempt to say shit like, ‘you didn’t deserve that, and i hope i didn’t fuck up your life.’ like, you know what? WE DON’T NEED YOUR APPROVAL TO FEEL BETTER, OR HOW TO FEEL ABOUT OURSELVES, OR ANYTHING. THANK YOU! YOU HAVE HELPED ENOUGH! THAT’S IT! STOP FUCKING ‘HELPING!’!

i guess some people will look at this or hear me talk about it and think this is an earnest attempt at an apology. my boyfriend seems to think so. but i have received apologies, and i’ve received absolutely false apologies, and i have been ‘apologized to’ by a sociopath (my ex), and by someone with NPD (my friend’s ex). lololololol. i can’t describe how full of shit those ‘apologies’ are. they are so fake, it’s INFURIATING.

there’s a phrase in Romanian, ‘limbă de lemn.’ It means ‘wooden tongue.’ the phrase, as i understand it, originated to describe the way the communist government and its documents spoke (if you’ve ever read these things, or even read the book 1984, you’ll know what I mean). now, it seems to be used for anything that ’says a lot without saying anything at all.’ that is a sociopathic/narcissistic apology. that is Kyle Payne’s apology. by his own admission, he has Narcissistic Personality Disorder. i mean come on!

seriously, i don’t believe in rehabilitation of sex offenders except in the young, and only then it works ’sometimes.’ fucked up or not, it just doesn’t seem to happen, no matter how fancy their rehab program is. i think all you can do is make sure they do not exist in the ‘real world’ ever again, either by physically locking them away or by taking away all their opportunities to function in the world. the latter seems to have happened to Kyle Payne, but we’ll see about that. sex offenders have a funny way of changing their identity, getting themselves forgiven, etc etc.

but that’s my bitter rape survivor opinion!

also, yeah, Kyle, you’re so mortified and sorry, you took a plea bargain. come the fuck on who are you even KIDDING?

anyway, it’s labor day weekend, it’s hot out and beautiful, so I’m off to a picnic! of course, in other parts of the country and caribbean, it is not so nice and beautiful out. So I hope that the hurricanes leave things the way they were before, all life is kept intact, and that everyone is able to evacuate and do so safely.

Tags: feminism, illegal pornography, kyle payne, narcissistic personality disorder, sexual assault